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Bruised and scarred. Frikey. 7
The day moved slowly. Frank being in a majority of my classes really didn't help. He wasn't exactly talking as much as he did yesterday. Which worried me because I couldn't tell if he saw more than he said he did. If that's the case, I don't know what he'll do. If he says anything I'm fucked. Dead even.
The bell for last period rang, thats the only class I don't have with Frank. I slightly looked at him, he looked at me. I faced him as I was getting up to leave and he gave me a sympathetic smile before walking out of the room. I sighed and made my way to last period. When I walked in I immediately put my head down and tried to get some sleep.
I managed to stay asleep with no disruptions until the bell rang to dismiss school. At that point I darted out of the room and weaved through the crowd in a hard effort to make it out to Brandon on time in hopes of a good night. I felt someone tap my shoulder and I spun around wildly to see Frank.
"Yes?" I said a little too cold. I glanced at the
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Bruised and scarred. Frikey. 6
I was breathing quickly when he grabbed my arms.
"You know Mikey, there's a lot of boys here. You aren't cheating on me are you?" He said.
"No Brandon."
"That's right." He grabbed my face with one of his hands. "And don't talk to that Frank kid. I think he likes you." I nodded. He gave a cheeky smile and roughly embraced me. "Because you're mine." He said, holding too tight.
I took a deep breath and saw Frank. His face lightened and he started walking towards me. I panicked and shook my head slightly with wide eyes trying to tell him no. He stopped and looked confused. I mouthed 'wait' and he got it. He walked over to the bike rack and sat.
"Baby what are you doing?" He pulled me in front of him, holding my wrists far too tight. "My hair was in my eyes." I whispered. "Louder!" He said slapping me.
"My hair was in my eyes!" I said. My eyes searching for anyone who saw. No one. I let out a sigh of relief. I reached a hand up to my face but he pulled it away.
"Okay, I'm leaving." He said.
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Bruised and scarred. Frikey. 5
"Oh!" He sounded a tad excited.
"What's up?"
He went silent.
" allowed to talk?" He said nervously. I let out a shaky breath. I really shouldn't, he'll kill me if he finds out. But Frank seems so nice. "Y-Yeah, Yeah I can." I said nervously sitting on the bed.
"Okay. Um, was that you earlier? He said you weren't available, but y'know." He said.
"No that wasn't me. I..really couldn't talk."
"He wasn't nice."  He said sounding genuinely hurt. I heard a giggle, and I was convinced it couldn't have been me.
"I know. He's not nice to me either sometimes."
"Really?" My eyes widened. I didn't mean to.
"Um, yeah." I said.
"That's not cool."
"I suppose." I said quietly. Frank sighed and we ended up talking for a long time. I think he even actually made me smile a couple times.
"Can I call you tomorrow?" Frank asked as we were hanging up. It was 11:45pm.
"Uhm, I'm not sure. I think it's safer if I call you." I said.
"What? Safer?" He asked.
"Y-yeah. But I don't know if I can, s
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Bruised and scarred. Frikey. 4
I woke up in the dark. Brandon was no where around. I sat up and I couldn't breathe right. I felt dirty and my body hurt. I knew he raped me, but I brushed that off. Sick as it sounds, I'm kind of used to it. I looked down at my chest, bruises were forming and there were cuts. Of course,arms, legs, face and neck were all the same. I slid slowly off the bed. I walked to the dresser and grabbed Pajamas and put them on. It hurt really bad. I deserve it though. I fucked up  bad this time. Its times like these where I kind of hate that I was kicked out of my house. My Aunt took me in only to be nice, but she doesn't give a shit about me. So, I've been forced to stay with Brandon a lot. I mean, he takes me to school and feeds me. So it's not that bad. And, I do love him. Well, at least I did at some point. Not that I could leave. He knows everything about me. He'd find me no matter where I went.
I walked downstairs and saw a piece of paper on the counter.
Won't be home till mor
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The truth is, I didn't want anyone to look at me. no one sees me, no one asks questions. Simple. I have scars and marks and bruises that I don't want people to ee. But this, this, Frank kid, he won't let down.
"And you are?" He asked.
"Way! Hood!" The teacher yelled, catching Frank's attention. He turned back to me and I shook my hair into my face and my neck before taking off my ood. It doesn't cover everything. Frank pretends not to notice. He looked at me.
"Mikey." I whispered. He smiled.
"Nice to meet you." I nodded and ket my head down. Frank turned back to the front.
Frank ended up being in a majority of my classes. I did the same thing in every class. Though, he insisted on having my phone number. So, to make him shut up. I gave it to him.
The final bell rang and I ran out of the classroom. If I'm late again he'll kill me.
I had one minute left after dodging people in the hallway. I was going to make it. Frank saw me.
"Mikey!" I stopped he came up to me. "What's up?"
"I-I can't
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The Silence
"I love you," Frank whispered. "More than anything." He looked up slightly from his feet, the cold air pushed his hair out of his face and brought slight tears to his eyes.
"I don't know why I'm telling you this. It's not like you could ever even like me back." He continued hopelessly.
Frank took a deep breath and shoved his hands into the pockets of his hoodie.
"I just sort of, wanted to finally get it out." He finished, blinking furiously as tear began to trail down his cheeks.
He took two steps forward and looked up to the night sky. Small snowflakes beginning to gently fall from the thin clouds above him. He let out a small cry and quickly brought up a hand to silence it. He inhaled deeply and crossed his arms to hug himself.
"Well, good bye Gerard." He whispered, his voice cracking due to tears lodged in his throat, threatening to erupt any second.
Frank then turned to leave. He walked, crying in silence. The sound of the new snow forming crunched delicately under his feet. No on
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Stay - Frerard
"Please." I said softly. Frank shook his head.
"I can't"
"But Frank."
He took a deep breath. "I can't be strong enough for the both of us. What am I supposed to do? You know I love you." He said becoming irritated. I opened my mouth to speak but tears came out.
"Please." i took a deep breath. "Stay." I said, my voice cracking. He shook his head turning to the door. He opened it and paused.
"Please understand if I see you again don't even say hello."  He looked me dead in the eyes and swiftly went trough the door.
"Please!" I said reaching for the door, but crashing to the ground instead. "Stay." I whispered as I cried silently to myself. Everyting hurt. Frank was gone. I don't know why. I stopped everything. I needed him. I cried myself to sleep on the floor and Mikey woke me up. He shook me gently.
"Gerard." I moaned and pushed him away. He roughly picked me up and slapped me hard across the face. I looked at him bewildered. He grabbed my and and pressed a cigarette and a li
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Frank's P.O.V.
The days that Gerard, Kail and Jordan were suspend were the best days of my life in a while. I wasn't bullied that much. I still got a few snickers and looks. But no direct bullying. I also got to think a little bit about the past few weeks. I realized... if Gerard really doesn't want me, I suppose I don't want him. If he can find someone else that is better than me, I can find someone better than him.
On Monday -the day of the meeting with me, Gerard, Kail and Jordan- went pretty well. Even though Kail and Jordan denied the fact that Gerard pushed me first. But, I ended up being in the right and the other three got detention. So that was a plus. I met another guy! His name is Bob and he's new to the school. I showed him around a little before his first class, which was History with me. Alaska didn't bother me today.
So I suppose you could say today was an improvement. But, then after school, I got a text from Gerard.
'Frankie...?' The text said. 'Yes?' I
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MCRDeviantClub Artist Interview
:iconpartypoisonlaplz: MARU'S NOTE: As a member of the DA group :iconmcrdeviantclub: I offered to host this article by group-founder :icontoad1: on my journal so she could have the use of thumbnails for gallery features. I'm not the author of this interview nor the photographer in question, I'm merely doing a favor for the group :) MCR fans, enjoy!
If you look at GIVEthemHORNS's gallery, you'll find a variety of great shots ranging from concerts to cute kittens. But she's most famous for her black-and-white photo of Mikey. This dramatic closeup with no special effects or makeup has inspired several artists.

In this interview, MCRdeviantClub asks her about her band photography and her experiences in the field.
How did you get the opportunity to photograph the band? (Both the photoshoots and the concert photos, assuming tho
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Frank's P.O.V.
Later that day, I got a text from Gerard. 'Earlier when I called you a fag, I didn't mean it.' He explained. 'Like I believe that.' I replied with. 'Are you mad at me?'
'No... I leave you here -for good reason too- ,you get pissed at me, make me come back, make me live on my own, I find out your cheating on me -with a girl I HATE nonetheless-  and you "called" me a fag but I'm not mad at you.' He replied back a few minutes later. 'Look I'm sorry. I didn't mean for it to go this far. I just, thought that when you left you wouldn't come back so I wanted a back up plan.' I rolled my eyes. 'Nice excuse.'
'It's not an excuse.'
'How is it not? I told you that I am sorry and I was going to come back if it was the last thing I  did.'
that was the end of our conversation. I was very glad that that was the end. Since the first time I have seen him, I didn't want to talk to him. He made my days worse even when I just looked, no, thought abo
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Frank's P.O.V.
It's finally Monday. For once, I can't wait to go to school. I finally got to see Gerard after a month of not seeing him. I was done getting ready before five. The bus comes at six fourtey five. I had a hour and a half to do nothing. I shouildn't have gotten up this early.
I left for the bus stop at six thirty. I was the only one at the bus stop. The bus came right on time. The first person I saw on the bus was Gerard. My smile streached from ear to ear. I sat right down next to him. "Hey," I said kissing his cheek. His face grew a little pink. "Hi" He smiled.  "How was the weeks without me?" I asked. "Boring as fuck."
"Not surprised." Gerard laughed. He looked over at me. "I missed you." He said. I smiled. "I missed you too." I replied. The rest of the ride to school was quiet. I was just gone for weeks and nothing happened?
When I got into school, the first person I saw was Jordan and his friends. He didn't bother me anymore. What did bother
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Frank's P.O.V.
It has been many days since I left Gerard. He never replied to my text message. I decied to send him another text.
'Hey Gerard. You probably didn't reply to the last text because you were pissed at me. I'd be pissed at me to for that stupid mistake I made for leaving you. But I just wanted you to know that no matter what I will always love you and that will never change. I want to be with you all the time cause when your not around I start going crazy, wondering if your okay. I seriously love you to fucking death! You are the best thing that walked into my life. Never forget that! Okay? Also, you are the cuteset, smartest most perfect boy in the world. Don't even think about arguing with me about it. Got it? I was wondering... Do you remember our first kiss? I sure as hell do. I feel like it happened yesterday. It was one of my tops favorite moments of my life. My love for you grows stronger everyday. When I see you smiling, I smile. I just wanted you to know tha
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Gerard's P.O.V.
Ring.... ring...
I grabbed my phone. A text from Frankie!
'Hey, I don't know how to break this to you, but. I am going to live with my mom in Trenton. I am so sorry that I have to go but it is the only way I could get out of that school. I really don't wanna do this, but I must leave. I am going to miss you so much! I am going to see you a lot. I promise. I feel so bad for leaveing you, but I just can't stay at that school. I am really sorry. I love you Gee. ~Love, Frankie<3'
W-what? Trenton? But, why? I'd be baling my eyes out but I couldn't, they were swollen almost shut. I texted back;
'B-but why?'
I waited a minuet for him to reply.
'Because I can't take that school! They are all a bunch ao homophobic dicks. I am so so so sorry Gee. ):'
'If you were really sorry you wouldn't have left in the first place!' I texted back.
'Gee, I had to,'
'No you didn't! You didn;t have to do anything! I'd keep you safe from the kids at school! I would be there for
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Frank's P.O.V.
It was three thirty in the morning when Gerard woke up. The nurse led me to his room. I looked at him. He looked worse than me. His right eye and left eye was blck-but his right eye was worse. His arms were bruised badly. Many scratches and cuts on his body. He smiled slightly at me. "Hey." He choked out. I ran over to him. "Gee are you okay?" I asked. He nodded slightly. "I'm fine. It only hurt... a lot... but I am fine." He said. I sighed "You don't look fine."
"I'm not."
I kissed his forehead. "How bout' you get some sleep." I suggested.
He nodded.
"Goodnight love." I said walking out of the room.
I couldn't sleep, so I walked around the city. It was really cold and dark, -obviously, it was nighttime.- I sat at the park under a tree and watched the sunrise. I skipped school that day, never wanting to go back. This gave me a lot of time to think. I thought about the past few days, Gerard, my dad, and my mom. I missed her so much. I wish she could come back. I w
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Hello Killjoys!

Name: Shilo, Ronnie.
Nicknames: Tot, Venom, Poison, Dead.
Age: 17 on August 1st.
Favorite Bands: Green Day, MCR, MSI, Mayday Parade, Never Shout Never, We The Kings, Falling In Reverse, Sleeping With Sirens, All Time Low
Killjoy name: Kerosene Melody.
Preferred Superhero: Seance from the Umbrella Academy

so, yeah, thats me. I love to draw and write and play my many instruments.

My favorite song and the LEGIT story to my life in Jesus of Suburbia by Green Day.

My idol since I first saw her is Lindsey Way. it may have something to do with the fact that ever since I was little I've wanted to play the bass.. so ... yeah, plus a lot of other things of course.

My Heroes are Green Day and My Chemical Romance Just, the whole band. Hayler Williams, Lyn-Z way ( a given.), Christofer Drew, And Ronnie Radke.

The best night of my life was 7-3-09 at the Chicago United Center. I saw Green Day.

And then, 4-16-11 at The Orbit Room in Grand Rapids...My Chemical Romance.... It was beautiful. I can't wait to see them again in August.

also, Honda Civic tour, 8-20-11 Tinley Park Chicago. Ive never been more proud to be part of the MCRmy.

I saw Falling In Reverse at Mojoe's, 2-3-12. Dear God, Ronnie Radke.

I Saw Mayday Parade and We The Kings at Mojoes, 2-10-12.

I saw and Met Mayday Parade at Warped2012. Best day.

Homophobia is Gay!((Frank Iero))- I am Rainbow. Im not Bi, and I'm not Gay. Im somewhere in between. So take your Homophobia elsewhere.

[[I'm a female version of Saint Jimmy. With the sass of Whatsername, The anxiety of a Cancer patient, The rebel of Gloria, The silence of a Vampire, and the thrill of a Killjoy.]]

if you don't like me, how i am, or how I do things, don't get to know me.

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In a land of make-believe....
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Keep Shining-
Gerard Way 8.20.11

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Current Residence: somewhere between Murder city and Battery City
Favourite genre of music: Punk
Favourite photographer: Frank Iero
Favourite style of art: Photography, Mix Media
Shell of choice: a Smile
Wallpaper of choice: Something Green Day or MCR
Skin of choice: rascits?
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my group. I need SO much help. Im still busy and im borrowing my parents laptop to type this.
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